twenty minutes to spare and update my alternate universe about the things going on in my otherwise fruitless existence. chuli is already in macau. did i mention that she's also already pregnant? and married? we've always known that she was going to be the first among us who'll brave the waters of domesticity. we just never thought it was going to be four days after her graduation. i should be pissed, generally. because this affects my life in more ways that's obvious. this marks the beginning of the turn of my social life. gone will be the days of hanging out with her in bars drinking, smoking, and listening to good music. she'll be spending them mostly feeding the baby. facilities we visit now ought to be baby-friendly. but then i'm not even sure she and kai will be settling here. she's already in macau. and kai will follow her once his papers are finished. and they'll come back in december for the baptism. but then, they'll go back there as well. i guess, i have to leave out that we won't be seeing much of each other anymore after this.
my mom told me that people never truly stay in your life. they just pass through you like the wind. every now and then they come back. the frendliest once, stay long. but all of them leave you at one point or another. i know that. but it's a little hard to accept it when you've somehow expected some things to remain the way they are. not that i expect time to freeze at this moment and stay like this for the rest of my godforsaken life. i just never thought that any of my friends would be settling somewhere else other than here. we'd leave each other for some time. a few months at most. but we'll always go back home. we'll call each other at the end of a trip and badger each other to meet up at a coffee shop and stay for hours talking, laughing, keeping up, hanging out. one pack of cigarettes making way for another, and servings of coffee doubling up and dwindling to water, till the sun sets and we decide to spend the night still yakking elsewhere or doing something a little of,f like bike riding at ccp or going all the way to tagaytay for another coffee.
the first one already gave up single status life for the married one. soon, someone else will be stepping up the banter. until life moves so swiftly, you won't realize the time you spend with your friends are time you spend with your kids tagging along. maybe this is the foreboding thing i have been trying to decipher for the past days. maybe that is what's making me anxious lately. but i can't really tell.
my mom told me that people never truly stay in your life. they just pass through you like the wind. every now and then they come back. the frendliest once, stay long. but all of them leave you at one point or another. i know that. but it's a little hard to accept it when you've somehow expected some things to remain the way they are. not that i expect time to freeze at this moment and stay like this for the rest of my godforsaken life. i just never thought that any of my friends would be settling somewhere else other than here. we'd leave each other for some time. a few months at most. but we'll always go back home. we'll call each other at the end of a trip and badger each other to meet up at a coffee shop and stay for hours talking, laughing, keeping up, hanging out. one pack of cigarettes making way for another, and servings of coffee doubling up and dwindling to water, till the sun sets and we decide to spend the night still yakking elsewhere or doing something a little of,f like bike riding at ccp or going all the way to tagaytay for another coffee.
the first one already gave up single status life for the married one. soon, someone else will be stepping up the banter. until life moves so swiftly, you won't realize the time you spend with your friends are time you spend with your kids tagging along. maybe this is the foreboding thing i have been trying to decipher for the past days. maybe that is what's making me anxious lately. but i can't really tell.
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