humor me about the week that happened and i'll probably go ranting and raving in one sentence. although i'll probably go raving first. that interview i was so nervous about turned out okay. it actually ended up more than okay. it was fantastic! i'm starting a career with a banking institution next month after the holidays. and it's something i never expected to happen. since for the most part i was ready to be turned down. but what do you know? i actually got in! *insert lots of happy faces.* in lieu of my hiring, i had to take a pre-employment check-up last thursday. which wasn't easy to start with because it was raining that day and we had to walk because finding the clinic required walking. while lounging in between my CBC and x-ray tests, i found that the news on tv was beginning to become bothering. senator trillanes apparently likes hotels. and he likes them with better accomodations. after walking out of his own court hearing from the makati RTC, he marched to manila peninsula, where my mom happens to be working. in the course of events that happened, with me half the time raving mad with worry, the short story of it is that the hotel ended up being rammed by a tank. fantastic strategy! if it were a boardgame. the thing is, it wasn't war of the generals. it was the real thing.
it bothers me now that people think what happened then was a good strategy. i guess it won't bother them unless it was their workplace or their house that gets driven over by a tank. someone just told me it was a trivial reason to consider the people who were going to clean up after the mess. but i realized that after every brouhaha like this, isn't that what we all do? we clean up. and then later on, we do the same thing. it feels like cleaning up after toddlers. you still try to fix things even if you know that an hour later, the kids are going to scatter their toys again. so is it really trivial? this made me realize that it's a little hard for me to believe in democracy anymore. what's left to believe in? there's no politician without a hidden agenda. they're all in gray areas. there's no black and white anymore. just a lot of people trying to sound smart. just when i decided to stay, i realize i don't have much belief in my country anymore. and it's painful to realize something like this because i lived believing in it for so long. everyone is so jaded it's easy to brush this off as jst another scenario. it didn't do any good anyway. and all you have are people left to pick up the pieces again.