the now or never

I've been frightfully busy recently. even my weekends seems to be booked. and the mantra, "so little time" seems to be working out pleasantly with me. and the fact that i'm not bothered about it scares me a little. despite the fact that i have little time for myself, i don't feel burned at all. maybe growth does come like this. time for yourself, is all the time you spend for everything else.

and speaking of growth. i've made a pretty harrassed decision to grow in the company i work for. it's a good decision. and the reason i believe that is because i believe in myself. and i believe in my job as well as the business i'm in. i believe whatever it is that the company represents. i know it's about time i do something like this. three years in the industry, i feel i have proven my worth in the bottom heirarchy already. it's time we expand our horizon. after all, if not now, then when?

the process does scare me a little. but i have confidence that i will do good. besides, even if i don't, i'm just going to keep on applying that they'll eventually get tired of interviewing me and they'll just give me the position. whoever said i didn't have perseverance?

Narda: The Reunion

Narda is back for a reunion gig at Saguijo Cafe in Makati on March 6. You'd really hate to miss this.

you asked for it

when this year started, i knew i wanted more than the normal expectations one would have on a given year. i wanted this year to be something i'll definitely remember. it's closely proving to be that anyway. but then maybe, just maybe, i'm rushing onto things i haven't prepared for yet.
i asked for a leadership training from my lead. she complied. assigned me a two-men committee. the one woman was me. and the other woman happened to be someone with a really strong presonality. i find that i'm having a bit of trouble trying to find ways to approach her. she's older than i am and with regards to life, probably more experienced. she's definitely been around. just not in the industry. and i'm trying to find the best way to tell her that in life, she could be the guru, but in this industry, i'm know my shit.
it probably comes with age. that a person ends to give a lot of unsolicited advice. but if i know something in this life, the elders know a lot. but they don't know everything. i realized that even if i've been through things in my age, there's still things i could learn from someone younger. it's one of the better fascinations of life. the thing is, it's a little hard for me to get around and telling her that without offending her. because if there's another thing i know about older people with strong personalities, the older they get, the more sensitive their pride gets.
she mentioned once that what she noticed in the business was that the people around tend to have masks. it's like saying that people in the industry don't really show you who you are. and i really don't want to come to a stage where i point at my face and tell her that "this, is not a mask." she already seemed to have made a conclusion about the people she's going to work with. and even if she says that she's not trying to be a know-it-all, that is how she ends up sounding like.
i don't want to form conclusions about her that would be unfair. but i guess i need a plan to come around and create a plan to get around this committee. this is what i get for asking for it.