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china reproves why it's one of my favorite places in the world.  i failed in my attempt to not buy anything. again, i went home with a couple pairs of shoes.  not bad.  last time i went home with three.  maybe next time i'll survive with just one. 

another reason why i like that place so much is because it's the closest place i know where i can buy those really yummy japanese street food.  those creamy balls that have squids in them.  then it's drizzled with sweet mayonnaise and fried onion skin.  yum.  i never get to buy them anywhere else.  maybe in japan.  but i won't be there anytime soon. 

and then there's pang yao's place.  this little version of carriedo that is my haven for tv series' that i love.  which now includes a new favorite.  heroes.   fantastic thing.  maybe the number of characters can be confusing.  but it's fascinating.  so let me get back at it.

but of course, criminal minds still tops my list.

what i need is a sound board

when people say they need someone to talk to, they're usually not looking for advice.  when they want advice, they'll ask for it.  but what they usually need is someone who'll just listen.  a sound board, so to speak.  that's what i need right now.  i don't need advice, solicited or otherwise.  my life couldn't possibly be less messier than the next person.  if it's hard for them to get things fixed, i don'tsee how they'll make much improvement in mine.  i just need someone who'll listen and nod their head every now and then to what i'm saying.  and asking me questions that will lead me to the advice they want to give me without me realizing i'm being advised.  a shrink, perhaps?  but then,they're too expensive for my lifestyle.  i need something cheaper.  takers?  anyone?

language issues

i'm listening to delispice right now.  a korean modern rock band.  if you watch korean film versions hollywood has been so adamant on remaking lately then they would probably sound familiar to you.  theydon't have any song in english and i don't understand a grain of korean, but i listen to them.  i have an addiction on utada hikaru music.  i even have her singles album.  and i own the soundtrack of rurouni kenshin. and the only thing english in it is a line that goes "it's gonna rain.."  but i listen to them.  i like them, actually.  sometimes it's not what the lyrics that makes sense to you.  it's those sounds that doesn't have words in them.  that's what's beautiful about music.  it doesn't need a language to be understood.  so even if i don't understand rat's ass about what the whole song is saying, i understand that there's an emotion that goes with it.  and if it affects you so much even if you don't understand it, then you don't need much to like it.

10 degrees

the human body temperature is normally 98 degrees.  i'm surrounded by 10 degrees of cold draft.  it's getting colder everyday as it happens.  it's a lot harder to bathe everyday even with the heater on.  i can now understand how jose rizal managed to not take a bath for a month when he was in spain. and it's not even snowing here.  but i do bathe, mind you.  despite freezing while at it.

my mind's kind of frozen up too, lately.   i haven't written anything i liked in a while.  although i have several ideas cropping up.  i wanted to go back to writing when i left info.  i wanted to write the way i used to write again.  but things have kind of frozen up.  and i have to thaw things out first before i start to get back to writing anything serious again. 

i'm revisiting my old blog lately.  reading a lot about what i used to say on paper.  i'm not being cocky, but i sometimes get across something i've written before and i manage to surprise myself.  the kind of insight i had on things.  but there are some parts i've read that made me realize i wasn't any smarter then either.  what i do know for sure, though is i'm happier now.  maybe because i was in the state of depression before.  i wasn't diagnosed, but i know the signs.  it's easier to become optimistic now.  and become hopeful.  i understand that we all get through those dark stages.  but then, when you've reached the bottom of the pit, there's no other way to go but up. 

and that is how you keep yourself warmer in 10 degrees.