the cases of criminal minds


i've been introduced to CBS's Criminal Minds since yesterday and i am officially hooked. It's a series that runs in the line of CSI. The difference between them is that CSI deals with forensics and the agents in Criminal Minds are profilers. CSI tries to find out how the murders happen. Criminal Minds looks to answer the why's. Mostly, they deal with serial killlers. And you'll be surprised just how sick someone can get. And how deep you have to dig to find out the reason why people get so psychotic. What makes Criminal Minds fascinating is that they have back-up research from true cases. Which means that at one time or another, someone who lived, some real, was actually living like their unsubs.

unbelievable, isn't it? As theey say, fact is stranger than fiction.

deep river

Ten to ten wo tsunagu you ni

Sen wo egaku yubi ga nazoru no wa

Watashi no kita michi soretomo ikisaki

Sen to sen wo musubu futari

Yagate minna umi ni tadoritsuki

hitotsu ni naru kara

Kowakunai keredo

Oh oh ikutsu mono kawa wo nagare

Wake mo kikazu ni

Ataerareta namae to tomo ni

Oh oh subete wo ukeireru nante

Shinakute ii yo

Watashitachi no itami ga ima

tobidatta
That's why...That's why I chose you

Ken to ken ga butsukariau oto o

Shiru tame ni takusareta ken ja nai yo

Sonna mujun de

dare wo mamoreru no

Oh oh Nando mo sugata o kaete

Watashi no mae ni maiorita anata wo

Kyou wa sagashiteru

Oh oh Doko demo ukeirerareyou to

Shinaide ii yo

Jibun rashisa to iu TSURUGI wo minna

sazukatta

Oh oh Toki ni wa nagare wo kaete

Nani mo motazu ni

Atarareta namae to tomo ni

Oh oh subete wo ukeireru nante

Shinakute ii yo

Shiokaze ni mukai toritachi ga ima

tobidatta

english:
Time and time again, I've crossed your aging paths

Lines drawn by your hands,

you made the distance far too long

The end I could never see,

I kept going-- it was the key

One by one they go... finding a way to see

The river that can flow through hearts and through our empty souls,

until we become as one

I now musn't fear the unknown...

Ho, ho, All of the rivers are endlessly flowing

Hearts I can see are so free

No words are needed

No name is spoken to me

Ahhh....

Ho, ho, Endlessly walking on my restless waters

My pain has flown away

Your soul has shown me the unknown distance,

tonightYou've taken me far

(That's why.... that's why.... that's why.... that's why I chose you)

Day and night I see...

a petty clash between two hearts

A needless fight where tender souls are freed of bitter innocence

Do you know the guilty heart?

How could you possibly know?

Ho, ho, Cold tears are tearing my heart into pieces

You're just a shadow to me

I keep on calling

You don't respond... to me

My river's flooding

Ho, ho, Walking on my restless waters and saying

"She knows why she must go..."

The answer's cryptic, bound in unworthy words.... to me

You've taken me far

Ho, ho, All of the rivers were endlessly flowing

Hearts, I had seen, were so free

No words were needed

No name was spoken to me

Ahhh....

Ho, ho, Walking on my restless waters and saying

"She knows why she must go...."

The struggle to tell, the pain that we had not felt is enough

You've taken me far....

another sad song to ponder. there was a time when i liked utada hikaru just because she was japanese. for some time i thought she was probably like those artificially made popstars who who wrote songs about their first crush. but i guess i had to give her credit for being more than that. it was with "final distance" when i realized she had more clout than i imagined she had.

this song wasn't in the singles collection album of hers that i bought. but when i looked up the video on youtube (it was also the first time i heard it), i was struck by how bittersweet it felt. i mean, you have this feeling whenever you hear a song for the first time if it means something deep to it's writer. even if you don't understand it's lyrics. i had that same feeling when i first heard "final distance" and "sakura drops." there was definetely something in there. so i went around the net searching for what this song meant. and i wasn't disappointed. it was started out like a quietly happy voice. from someone who have found contentment. and then by the end, everything she believed in just shatters. sad really. although a lot of it happens everyday.

it amazes me how people can express their feelings as if they were the only ones who ever felt them. as if no else in the world has ever felt betrayed before. or left behind. but i guess it's because even if everyone else in the world had the same story as yours, they would never feel the pain the same way you do. because it's all your own. because it's you. and they'll never feel it the same way because they're not you.

and so, even if we all walked on restless waters, and we all called out to someone who never responds, no one else will feel just how deep our own river is. even if they do try to wade in.