homebound

it's a new year and i'm off with a new agenda. just before 2004 ended stef showed me a house in greenwoods which i totally fell in love with. you see, stef's family is moving to greenwoods in about a week or so, and they have already found their house after about two years of unfaltering search. among their scouts, they found this corner house that they call greenhouse because it's painted with minty green. very mellow to the eyes. it looks like a southern plantation house with the boarded walls and roofed windows. and white picket fences. i loved it. so much that i decided to have my own house in a matter of two to three years. so every novelty i've been eyeing the last months would take a backseat for my house. i know i will not be able to get the louisiana house. but i've decided that i will get a house. i know this sounds like a flight of fancy. a thing i'll obsess over for the time being. but after all the things i've gained after working for the last year, i realized that none really seemed gratifying. i mean, true, there's nothing like wearing a whole outfit you bought yourself out of your own money. but there wouldn't be anything as gratifying as a house that's all mine. a place where i could escape monotony and the rat race. i've started saving. the only thing i'm spending on for the next few months will be my phone bill. which i plan to keep for good reason. beyond that will be frugal living. i really pray this isn't another flight of fancy. because i need something to drive me to continue on. and i still want to go back to school, you know. i just hope it won't be too late for me.