i hate losing people. no matter how dimunitive they might seem in my life. and nix wasn't dimunitive anymore. she was already a friend. i' already used to going home with her. and i'm already used with all of her antics. it's true that i take a while to warm up to people. but when i do warm up, i make sure i'm all commited. and i can't even bitch about boss jay either. because he's doing his job. he hadn't wanted to do that. i kinda feel that my loyaltis are beginning to be tested. and i'm not picking any side, dammit. i'm not picking any side.

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i gotta stop checking his friendster every time i log on. i feel like a stalker already. dammit.