started with a bang

i don't know if its a good thing but i definitely started the year like i was going to have a great year ahead. i haven't partied in a long time, and holidays are usually spent with family. it's like a tradition. this was the first year i spent counting down to 2008 with friends on the streets and half-buzzed. it's actually a shame that there were just three of us together. but i definitely enjoyed the fireworks and the celebration. i think i'm like most girls out there. fireworks are fantastic for me. just don't bring out the firecrackers. it has just been five days but i can tell you that i have spent three of the last five days getting merrily buzed. not drunk, mind you. i think i'm past the age to be allowed the convenience of getting drunk. just downing enough to feel a little lightheaded.

what's interesting though is that i've also been working my tearducts recently. and at first it kind of bothered me. but i just recently realized that it's a kind of cleansing for me. i'm not crying out of despair anymore. maybe, a little regret. but the next one's reason could just be pure joy. i truly feel like i'm headed there. and the excitement just won't simmer. i feel an anticipaton stronger than i've ever felt before. makes me wonder what i'll find at the bend on the road ahead.