10 degrees

the human body temperature is normally 98 degrees.  i'm surrounded by 10 degrees of cold draft.  it's getting colder everyday as it happens.  it's a lot harder to bathe everyday even with the heater on.  i can now understand how jose rizal managed to not take a bath for a month when he was in spain. and it's not even snowing here.  but i do bathe, mind you.  despite freezing while at it.

my mind's kind of frozen up too, lately.   i haven't written anything i liked in a while.  although i have several ideas cropping up.  i wanted to go back to writing when i left info.  i wanted to write the way i used to write again.  but things have kind of frozen up.  and i have to thaw things out first before i start to get back to writing anything serious again. 

i'm revisiting my old blog lately.  reading a lot about what i used to say on paper.  i'm not being cocky, but i sometimes get across something i've written before and i manage to surprise myself.  the kind of insight i had on things.  but there are some parts i've read that made me realize i wasn't any smarter then either.  what i do know for sure, though is i'm happier now.  maybe because i was in the state of depression before.  i wasn't diagnosed, but i know the signs.  it's easier to become optimistic now.  and become hopeful.  i understand that we all get through those dark stages.  but then, when you've reached the bottom of the pit, there's no other way to go but up. 

and that is how you keep yourself warmer in 10 degrees.